Friday, May 08, 2009


Those of us who belong to Foodaholics Anonymous suffer from an array of compulsive disorders to befuddle the best of psychoanalysts. I can identify a few of mine and maybe one of Luckie's.

**Luckie probably was garbage hound, as her alleged history is abuse and neglect. Sometimes, a stray, she had to provide for herself and her litters. The animal motherly instinct of survival is strong.

1. I was never starved. My childhood family of five always had food on the table. Admittedly, we had to share, like portions of one round steak. Sometimes, it seemed my dad and brother got the best and larger portions, but I was a somewhat selfish, oldest-child-brat.

2. I hate making difficult or distasteful decisions, so I eat something, while I ponder away the time period I could have accomplished the tasks. Sometimes, these are common everyday decisions like dust, file, cook or vacuum. I dislike all these tasks. Add to that anything outdoors. Allergies complicate my dislikes.

3. Night-time binges, which begin after 10 p.m. and continue well past midnight, are compulsive. I have no explanation for them, and often don't remember unless there is evidence the next morning, like empty boxes, dirty bowls, etc. [I almost never binge during daylight hours--go figure.]

Maybe, I sympathized with a blogger who had a bad day, seemingly fueled by the sugar booger, or, maybe my consumption of fruit and two Fiber One Oat and Caramel bars yesterday, fueled the impending binge. NAH, probably my stupid excuse and ultimately, coincidence?!
I had a healthy late snack of strawberries, yogurt and wheat germ with Splenda and a Splenda sweetened strawberry glaze. all within my diet guidelines. I also had fruit earlier, blackberries and blueberries for lunch, sweetened with Splenda and some wheat germ for crunch. Too much fruit (natural sugar)? Too much Splenda? The two Fiber One bars were very sweet; they may be the fueling sugar boogers.

Then the binge began. Out came the peanut butter and Wheat Thins Fiber Select. This morning the box is almost empty, but peanut butter jar is not--one tiny gleam of hope!

Some nutritionists and other diet "experts" claim artificial sweeteners in excess fuel the metabolism to crave sugar. Maybe true, but I think the craving is a mental aberration.

All I can do is to get back up, dust myself off, and get to the gym in a hurry!


Sniffles and Smiles said...

Oh, so true!!! I binged on Potato chips yesterday, and awakened feeling very guilty this morning...time to put on the running shoes :-) LOL. Thanks for sharing! I love your blog!

Arkansas Patti said...

Wish I had an answer. I have found if I give up sugar and artificial sweetners completely--- NONE----NADA, then I can stick to my diet with no problem and when I eat really right, I am not hungry at all. Then I will have one little piece of something sweet and I get like a shark at a frenzy feed. We all know what to do, it is just doing it with out feeling totally deprived.
You figure it out, let me know.

Snowbrush said...

I'm always amazed by how many dogs and cats are on the net. I personally am a shrub as you can see, and not just any shrub but a shrub that only grows in the NW mountains of the U.S.

I didn't care for food until well into my adulthood. My wife never has been able to relate to that.