Those of us who belong to Foodaholics Anonymous suffer from an array of compulsive disorders to befuddle the best of psychoanalysts. I can identify a few of mine and maybe one of Luckie's.
**Luckie probably was garbage hound, as her alleged history is abuse and neglect. Sometimes, a stray, she had to provide for herself and her litters. The animal motherly instinct of survival is strong.
1. I was never starved. My childhood family of five always had food on the table. Admittedly, we had to share, like portions of one round steak. Sometimes, it seemed my dad and brother got the best and larger portions, but I was a somewhat selfish, oldest-child-brat.
2. I hate making difficult or distasteful decisions, so I eat something, while I ponder away the time period I could have accomplished the tasks. Sometimes, these are common everyday decisions like dust, file, cook or vacuum. I dislike all these tasks. Add to that anything outdoors. Allergies complicate my dislikes.
3. Night-time binges, which begin after 10 p.m. and continue well past midnight, are compulsive. I have no explanation for them, and often don't remember unless there is evidence the next morning, like empty boxes, dirty bowls, etc. [I almost never binge during daylight hours--go figure.]
Maybe, I sympathized with a blogger who had a bad day, seemingly fueled by the sugar booger, or, maybe my consumption of fruit and two Fiber One Oat and Caramel bars yesterday, fueled the impending binge. NAH, probably my stupid excuse and ultimately, coincidence?!
I had a healthy late snack of strawberries, yogurt and wheat germ with Splenda and a Splenda sweetened strawberry glaze. all within my diet guidelines. I also had fruit earlier, blackberries and blueberries for lunch, sweetened with Splenda and some wheat germ for crunch. Too much fruit (natural sugar)? Too much Splenda? The two Fiber One bars were very sweet; they may be the fueling sugar boogers.
Then the binge began. Out came the peanut butter and Wheat Thins Fiber Select. This morning the box is almost empty, but peanut butter jar is not--one tiny gleam of hope!
Some nutritionists and other diet "experts" claim artificial sweeteners in excess fuel the metabolism to crave sugar. Maybe true, but I think the craving is a mental aberration.
All I can do is to get back up, dust myself off, and get to the gym in a hurry!